Confessions of a Seeker

And when things have begun to make sense slowly, with each passing moment I wonder if it is the right time (destiny; karma) or the incessant perserverance, that is the key to unlock the eternal truth of existence , to discover the light to self-awareness, to unravel the mysteries of divinity and to connect to our personal and supreme self.

Having lived almost about half the life expectancy of an average person, it sometimes fills me with utter despair, deep restlessness and helplessness to find myself in the middle of nowhere. It is like, my conscience is oscillating like a pendulum, my soul is trapped in the state of limbo in the pool of eternity, in between the worlds of materialism and spirituality.

whatever you may call it, my delusion or a strong conviction developed through time, out of myriad of life experiences of myself and other influential figures of the world, I hold this firm belief that the most wonderful and the most beautiful things in this universe which includes the blissful self awareness are or rather should be omnipresent, within an easy and effortless reach of all men. God, who I  refer to, as the highest force governing and sustaining the world, I believe, has or must have made these fruits of nature within easy access for all of its beings to taste, enjoy and to nurture themselves with.

Experts of the hindu mythology claim, as they’ve done with numerous examples dating back to the Satya-yuga,  the need of a guru, the learned one in guiding a disciple to learn the right method and travel these paths of self discovery to attain the ultimate state of self awareness, in which they are finally able to dissolve themselves into the universal space, being in full harmony and being one with the supreme self.

Is  the presence of a Guru a must, a prerequisite or is it the right time that matures the disciple to  reap the fruits of his efforts on the paths of self-discovery?